One of my core values and things that I felt very strong about, starting from year 2015 and then developing slowly from theory to practice was the thought of reaching a deep satisfaction in life thru not wanting anything more and appreciating what I already have.
I felt that it getting rid of the continuous need of new things and experiences in life would release me from the hamster wheel of always being somewhat unhappy because I felt that I would/should need something more. The key to that, as mentioned above, is to appreciate what you already have, in other words to want the things that you already have, not the ones you do not have.
To me this made a lot of sense and I felt that if I could rally succeed in that, I would have made quantum leap in my felt life satisfaction. However, as I put my effort and focused my thoughts to enable this, it actually slowly started to happen and for approx. at least 3 years I have now lived a life that I once saw as the answer to many of my so called “challenges” to lead as satisfactory life as possible.
Little did I know and nobody wrote anywhere what actually happens as a by-product of this. I can tell you what happened to me at least. As I ended up feeling that I already have everything I want, I did not feel totally satisfied. I mean I did with the want-need part, but overall the end was not as I expected. It actually took me some time to define what also changed with this process, that made the endpoint feel not as I suspected.
After wondering about this thing for some time it finally came to me. I have lost my dreams! By feeling that I already had everything I wanted, it erased all my dreams of the future, as they were not needed any more (rationalization). And that caused an unexpected result. I found out that dreams are actually very important to a person.
Without dreams of what to want from the future, what to aim for, life lost something very important. Every day seemed to be the same and my life has slowly turned actually boring and not at all optimally satisfied.
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